this can’t be.

this can’t be…

another jolt, one more sweep down many feet

heart skips then jumps up and gets tuck in my throat

turbulent weather gory details, no, this can’t be

so soon? so sudden?

No! this can’t be!

I hold my little darling’s hand

she looks up with twinkling eyes

sparkle in her’s transfers infectiously into mine

she loves the roller coaster ride

she loves the uncertainty of life

she knows my hands are larger

she has known me from the fragrance of my bosom

she knows when I hold her close no harm will be done

I know I have to keep her faith from fledgling

I have to be upright and not fiddle

I have to keep a brave front for she believes in me

another jolt and I smile at her

she reciprocates and I am elated

we both give out a hearty laugh

people look at us, their eyes sunk in

fear drooling out dripping all around

I question their sights through my eyes

no, this can’t be

So soon? So sudden?

Never!

I belong to you.

I belong to you.

the moment I happen to be in your presence

I bow to you

I celebrate every moment of being with you

I stand in front of you

I admire your majestic beauty

your magnificent view takes my breath away

your sandy shores beckon me to sit on it

savour that hide and seek of lights filtering through clouds

your deafening roars make me fall in love with you anew

your emotional trips riding high

and falling low make me swoon within me

your currents carrying lifetimes of forgotten

yet sung for centuries lores make me worship you

you know I can never turn my back towards you

when I move away I keep facing you

I have no heart to let my eyes skip a single glimpse of you

I know you shall be here when I visit next

yet my soul feels a pinch of sadness

for I know you will keep haunting me till I come again

and I kneel at your altar to pray

I might forget to cross my heart when I look at you

yet I know my prayers will be carried where they are intended to

when the whole of humanity at your doorstep looks at you in awe

while all are engrossed in your majestic exotic exuberance

I silently walk inside your heart and claim the best seat ever!

Reading habit.

Reading habit.

reading habit is like another part of my soul
I have learned to live through reading
I live the lives what millions have lived before
I live the lives what multitudes will live again
lives that are loved, rejoiced, celebrated
lives that cherished every moment of living
lives that were meant to be lived
lives that will continue to live
despite all odds the lives we have been destined with
lives that will be ours even when we cease to be
lives that belonged even before we were born

for the lives when we lock in words become larger than the lives we live
larger than the palm of my hand at which I look for my own approval
life that I felt belonged to you and you said it was mine alone
another of those that went wasted blown and washed away
on the altar of endearing words that were spoken with no meaning in them
lives that enclosed those sweet nothings that are resting on my pillow
lives that once danced when we knew the music now faded
I read all the books lying by my bedside at an arm’s length
and I look longingly at those still lying in my shelf
for I am a proclaimed slave of reading habit!

I want to be reborn!

I want to be reborn…

God let me be born once again
let me be born young like this dramatic ocean
forceful, buoyant, full of zeal
every single drop is nectar to lives living in me
God make me wave after wave of unending love
God put me on the hearth of this boiling froth
let me be lured by it’s magnetic pull
let me live for ages and let me be the ageless
God let me be the one who never tires
let me be the one who forever is on trial
let me be the one who fills all craters created out of love
God let me be the one who was here when no one was
let me be the one who will famish when all will leave for finer abode
God let me be present from horizon to horizon in all four directions
let me rise high while making love with moon
God let me fall back to myself when she hides away behind earth
for earth is my first love for whom I chose to be
earth is my wife who bore me children of humanity
earth is the woman I kissed till eternity
and earth is the sufferer whom I chose not to be faithful
for being here in her arms for all the days when I need her
I relish nights while she sleeps and I spend dark roaring hours with moon
God let me be in this love for centuries to come
for lord this is what you have ordered me to be in
God you made me faithful to love forgiving all my sins
for lives that live out of me know my worth
God make me forever a woman of virtue
O’ God make me an ocean for once when you make me a man!

Come to me…

come to me…

come ocean come to me

play with me drench me

drown me make love to me

here I am waiting for you since ages of my turmoil

awaiting your turmoil to claim mine

for you have the heart to touch mine and still stay dry

I know your eyes will not shed tears if you embrace me

here I am waiting for you from my first day

from the day I came to be

since the day I am here

since the day I was detached from oceans of umbilical fluid

this thirsty soul is searching shores that you behold

since the day I learned to walk

from the day I spoke my first words

since that day I learned to love

come ocean come to me

come and hold my hand once

squeeze me embrace me

come and sweep me off my feet

planted in your porous sand

let me be washed as anew

as if it was never afore

come and soak me in your salts

entangle me in your weeds

come and bleed me till I drop!

Come ocean come to me…

Love affair!

love affair!

to live with anger or to live without love
is a burden filled with anguish
cause of rift is always present
when we resolve to be unknown
uncertain terms are the rules of this game
that we play day in and day out
wintry winds pierce through souls
cast them in iced cold waters
desires are seen through the frozen surface
fishing around in lazy hazy sealed waters
groping for every morsel that comes their way
cold frozen not palpable yet to be devoured
for to survive this world voids need to be filled
hollows are required to be levelled with the earth
for the fortresses we live in are not built on moon
crators in hearts are deeper than oceans we are thrown into
deep waters have been taught to throw life back to its shores
and this life has learnt to swim in deep waters in all times
so this love affair between life and oceans continue!