When you are at an arms length
when I am away from myself
when I turn myself upside down
and find you in my mirror
while I stay asleep
awaiting till death claims me
myriad dawns appear with urns filled with glee
while I walk for that extra mile
my rendered feet refuse to budge
my arms hung by my side
I tread on lost tracks
transcending through a labyrinth of
defeated souls
I rush
I trot
I arrive
to find myself nowhere…
I live enough each day
till I exist in me
I soak my desires
the way almonds dip in honey
with the taste of the morning on my famished lips
straightened wrinkles of my gown wake me up
I live long enough to follow my moon
from west to east
I live everyday to sing with each bird
I live long enough every single day
to watch my every step
I love each day to sip life
from my very own cup
Carrying your fragrance in my nostrils
I stumble upon my forgotten depth
And it rises within me
Like the ash from funeral pyre of those burnt down dreams
I sit on that flattened stone
I dare not lit the pyre
Though I am the offspring
The left over of that urn
Only tangible leftover among many
that claimed to be fallen from trees
I owe it to you
I owe my desires, my unfulfilled lust to you
I know I will have to answer for my absence
on the day I present myself with dignity
I sit here contemplating if I ought to be here untouched by this fire
that engulfs you for one final time
Do I need to wait
Or do I jump right after you
holding on to your outstretched hand…..
I chose to wait
I know I have to carry this urn longer
For my destroyed chastity needs to be replenished
I have to pass the inheritance onto those shoulders
Mine are getting thicker and heavier with every passing day….
Fresh breeze in this morning makes me ride the crest of my ocean
I cross my arms to let my melting bosom merge in your embrace
one step forward to make the plunge into our rainbow
My colorless heart awaits showers that leaves your shores
We arrive to see ourselves in unison against powers hidden underneath that swollen body of path
Let the risks of being forgotten be buried deep in that pit
let the joy of being forgiven be allowed a flight to the realm of togetherness
Let the sins committed and spread in the air I breathe be famished
For I know if I exist I can live and die within each moment of this existence
and survive to tell the tale…
I’m walking on the beach
Braving your wave after wave
Calling out to you
Embrace and ride with me
On this sand that sinks my feet furtively
Hold my hand and let me be above these treacherous foams of bygone years
Let the wasted me be our treasure to be found during next times
Let our teeth clench and brush against each other
The kiss our lips designed has chalked out our famished turmoils
Pin me down on this wet bed of sand just left by this oceans onslaught
Crush me harsh for I need to rise alive from my own ashes….
The assignment
or the challenge I took up
to be myself against all odds
to be true to our souls
the pebbles I picked up
while trudging along the way
did you see the rainbow reflecting from each one of them?
did you ever feel my eyes caress
when I look at you……..
